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So a lil about me....I'm married to my high school sweetheart, and now have three sons, Devon, Thalen, Dadrin (Dade)and a little girl, Celestine
I'm also a Freelance Graphic Designer & Illustrator. I LOVE my work. :-)
Well... lets see what else? I'm Hella shy, til I get to know the person, then I'm chattier than hell. I'm always willing to make new friends, but am a bit particular about which friends I get close too and keep in my life for the long haul.
I think I'm in a hangout mode in my life right now, occasional parties are GREAT, but I like to just kick back, have a nice toasty warm beverage, coffee, tea, hot coco (with marshmallows of course!)and hangout with my friends.
Escaping Myself
2005-07-25 - 1:35 p.m.
I dont understand why my mind works the way it does sometimes....
but its scary. and I want to it STOP.
Dont give me that "well then make it stop" line of crap either. I try. I try working throught it. I try ignoring it, I try distracting myself from it.. I try facing it.
and still the images, thoughts and emotions still return to haunt my mind. creating confusion, sending me into the dark caverns of my mind to sit and rest, to try to sort out the clutter.
At least I'm not allowing myself to stay in there for very long. I need the light far to much to be willing to stay alone in the dark.
Not that its any more comforting out there.
sometimes I wish I could just run away.
But theres just no escaping me.
dammit.
guess I'm screwed ;-)
Mood: emotional
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