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So a lil about me....I'm married to my high school sweetheart, and now have three sons, Devon, Thalen, Dadrin (Dade)and a little girl, Celestine

I'm also a Freelance Graphic Designer & Illustrator. I LOVE my work. :-)

Well... lets see what else? I'm Hella shy, til I get to know the person, then I'm chattier than hell. I'm always willing to make new friends, but am a bit particular about which friends I get close too and keep in my life for the long haul.

I think I'm in a hangout mode in my life right now, occasional parties are GREAT, but I like to just kick back, have a nice toasty warm beverage, coffee, tea, hot coco (with marshmallows of course!)and hangout with my friends.

My Thursday astro.com

2004-09-17 - 8:46 a.m.

Sometimes these things hit so dead on without the generilzations that its REALLY scary... and what FREAKS me out even more so (in a good "holy shit" kinda way) is when they give EXACT dates (I've had this happen 3 times this month.. and its been frightingly accurate)..... and now the reading..........

Following through

This is a good time to take the initiative and start a new project. It will go very well, because you will have the insight as well as the energy to follow it through to the conclusion. During this time you will be most strongly motivated toward tasks that bring credit to you and express you as an individual. Greater self- confidence usually accompanies this influence, so if you have to present a project to someone, you will be able to do it much more effectively. Everything you do now will give you greater self- assurance and the extra drive and confidence that you will need in the future, when things may not

run as smoothly. Probably the worst way to handle this influence is to do nothing, for you will lose an opportunity to prove your own worth to yourself.

Precision

Valid during several weeks: During this period you are likely to proceed with considerable caution, which has both good and difficult effects. You are much more conscious than usual of the distinctions between things, making it hard to see the "forest for the trees." This extends to your attitudes toward others, so that you may be inclined

to concentrate on people's negative characteristics and to overlook their positive traits. On the positive side, this influence can give you great intellectual precision. If you have to do any work that requires extreme precision of thought and planning, now is the time. It will work especially well if you have previously outlined the

general plan and left the detailed planning until now.

From deep below

Weak, transient effect: This influence can bring about very intense emotional experiences, because it tends to bring energies to the surface from the deepest part of your psyche. It is the sort of influence that could make for a very fruitful session with one's analyst. Even if you are not in any kind of therapy, however, you are

likely to have some kind of self- analytic interaction with another person. Events that take place this morning may allow you to learn about your real feelings. Relations with women will be unusually intense now, and in a love relationship this influence signifies deep emotional experiences that can be either positive or negative. Be

careful about games in which you and your partner manipulate emotions to gain power over each other. Also be careful about feelings of possessiveness and jealousy.

Emotional encounters

During this time your emotional experiences are much more intense than usual, which is reflected in the kinds of people and situations that you are drawn to. For example, you may draw in unusually intense or powerful people who have a strong effect upon you. Very often through

your emotional encounters with these people, you experience moods and feelings that are quite different from your "normal" self. You may ask if this is really you, it seems so different. And you may also desire something that belongs to someone else, or you may desire greater

control over something that is both yours and another's. In either case you must recognize that your attachment serves no real purpose and that it is a potential source of trouble.

Selflessnes

Weak, transient effect: This influence makes you very sensitive to other people's moods, and if you are at all psychic you will be more sensitive in this regard as well. But with this sensitivity, you have to be careful about the people you are with. On the other hand, it is good to be with friends whom you are devoted to. This quality of time

can signify selflessness and genuinely caring for others without regard for your own needs, and this is not done in a martyred spirit. You feel great sympathy and compassion for those who are in need, and are willing to help either personally or through working with a charitable group. This influence may also arouse your daydreaming

tendencies. Today during the day you may wish to be by yourself and retire into your own private inner world, or you may wish to talk about your daydreams with friends.

Intense feelings

Weak, transient effect: This influence normally indicates a few hours of unusually intense feelings. Today during the day you will have a strong desire to know yourself and to experience life largely through the emotion. This is probably not the best time for work that requires

a completely clear and dispassionate state of consciousness, but you will not feel like doing that kind of work anyway. You will want to engage your emotions in whatever you do, and you will experience a richness of feeling and inner life that is satisfying in itself. This

influence is good for any business matters concerning the general public or for any situation in which you have to appear before the public or a large group. Otherwise it is not an influence that stimulates drive and ambition.

Subjective thinking

Weak, transient effect: This influence can signify a critical time in your communications with the people around you, particularly those with whom you are intimately involved. The danger is that your feelings and emotions will overwhelm your rational intellect, making your thinking so subjective that no one else will be able to relate to

what you say. Nevertheless you have a strong need to communicate about your emotions. You should avoid dealing with controversy by changing your own views every time someone disagrees with them. You will tend

now to change your views according to the prevailing wind, but this may result in compromising yourself if the people you have "agreed" with compare viewpoints. However, it is natural for your opinions to be in a state of flux at this time. Just be honest about admitting it.

Inward harmony

Weak, transient effect: Tonight you feel very much in harmony with yourself and able to do whatever you have to do single- mindedly. Your energies flow with less resistance, and life seems to be easier now. As a consequence, you can relate to people more easily, for others perceive your inward harmony and are drawn to you because of it. Obviously this is a good time for any kind of group activity. You are able to relate your own interests to the interests of any group you are working with, so that everyone will gain from what you do.

Relations with men are also improved for the same reasons. A marriage or intimate relationship will be especially harmonious now, for this is a time of real understanding. On the physical level this harmony is

expressed as a feeling of vitality, even if you may not feel driven toaccomplish a great deal of work.

A massive push

Valid during many months: This is an extremely important influence that will affect the entire course and direction of your life and what you will actually accomplish. It is also a rather long lasting influence, whose effects will be manifested over a period of up to two years.

The central issue here is your life direction. Where are you going? What are you doing? How are you going about doing it? This is a time of vigorous scrutiny when you will probably examine everything that you have done with your life up until now and ask a number of questions. First, do you really feel that what you have been doing is valid? Don't think solely in terms of your job, although that is

certainly an important part of the question. Many people's true vocation consists of what they consider to be an avocation.

Second, are the means you have used been appropriate to your ends and to your own inner being? This is an extremely important question. With this influence, what is required is not just success; it must be won properly. If you have had to violate the rules of your game in order

to win, this influence is likely to bring you crashing down in

failure.

Your response to this influence depends on your answers to the above questions. If you discover that you are not fulfilling your true calling in your work or another area, this influence will bring inexorable forces to the surface that will drive you out of your present position. You may leave voluntarily, or you may be forced out by being fired or laid off. If this happens, let your inner feelings guide you in an entirely new direction.

If you have been on the proper course all these years, this influence will give you a massive push to succeed. Only watch out that your push doesn't arouse too much opposition from above that could slow you down. The forces set loose by this influence are often very difficult to handle. Also be careful about breaking the rules of the game as mentioned above, for this can destroy your efforts.

Mutual reinforcementValid during many months: This influence indicates a time of equilibrium in your life, when the demands of the world are in balance with your emotional needs. Emotional maturity and past experiences have prepared you for this, and now you can put your understanding to work to make your life run more smoothly. Tensions that in the past have seemed to pull you in opposite directions are now working in balance and harmony.

At this time your emotional attitude is sober. Your mental state is relatively quiet, and you can see objectively what is true for you, what your needs are and how much you can give and get from others.Your domestic life and your work reinforce each other, and you are able to attend to both without sacrificing either.

Older people, especially women, may give you great insight and understanding. Your own emotional attitudes are "older" at this time.You take advantage of other people's insights of age.

Negative conclusions

Valid during many months: This is an extremely critical influence, made more so by the fact that it often remains unnoticed for a long time. Your belief in the good of something could lead you down the wrong path. Therefore it is important that you remain unusually sceptical of any miracle- cures or people who try to persuade you that they have all the answers to your life's problems. Even if such promises seem fairly plausible and believable, you would be well advised to resist any powerful outside influences for the duration of this aspect. If you can be more open with those close to you this may lead to many new insights, while also relativizing some of your misunderstandings regarding what some people purport to be. This will create a basis of trust, which will allow others to be more open and authentic in return.

A unexpected meeting with someone you havn't seen for a long time, or some remark made by your parents or partner could trigger memories of a painful incident in your past. At that time you may have felt ridiculed, misunderstood or even deeply despised. Even if this incident occurred decades ago, the feelings of shame, fear or inadequacy associated with it could be awakened once again, giving you the opportunity to discuss the matter. This influence will make you much more understanding and tolerant of your own and others' failings, helping you to accept these as an integral part of human existence. Only by doing this will you ensure that charlatans and self-proclaimed gurus have no influence over you.

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